17 Sep 2014 – A day in my life where so much happened, that I need to document it.
Let’s start off with this. Have you ever had moments in your life, whereby you thought of a person, or missed a person, and you wonder how the other person is doing. Of course you hope the person is doing good, is well and is happy.
When I was in my 20s, I had a special friendship with a Japanese teacher. She was very kind and I felt close to her. She stayed rather close to me, and often time, whenever I pass by her block, I often think of her. Sometimes when you think of a person that much, the person would show up on the street walking. A few times, this happened to me. I think it’s Heaven’s way of telling me, “This person is alive and is OK.” I would be happy whenever I see her on the street while I was in the bus.
What I am going to say next is similar to the event above. Besides that, what was important to me was it tied in to an earlier post where I talked about unconditional love. I like to think that what happened was actually an opportunity that Heaven sent for me to practice what I wanted to achieve.
John – I’ve been thinking quite a bit about him for the past weeks. The feelings range from missing this person, to a tinge of sadness, to great compassion, to wishing that he would find happiness and be set free of suffering. (This will be blogged about in detailed, in a dedicated post about this person)
Because we lived in such a small country, and in fact we live in the same west area, it is inevitable that at some point in our life, our paths would cross again.
That day, I had to run errands downtown, and I had a past life regression workshop later in the evening. I left my house about 3 plus in the afternoon, and took a bus. There is more than 1 bus that would bring me to where I need to be, and of course, I would take whichever bus arrived first.
I sat on the right side of the bus, enjoying the scenery and listening to my music.
As the bus turned into Tanglin, I happened to look on the left side. And there, right before my eyes, I spotted John.
He was wearing a white singlet, and white jogging shorts, jogging along Tanglin. It was 4 plus in the afternoon, and the sun was rather strong. He looked focused and intensed in his jogging. Was he in pain? He mentioned about pain in his nerves on the thigh. But he was jogging slowly.
Immediately I was really happy to see him. To see that he was well, doing the usual routine he likes doing makes me happy. Still seated on the right side of the bus, I tried waving to him. I was smiling. But he didn’t see me.
Right away, I remembered Dr. Brian Weiss words “Instead of worrying about specific outcomes and results, just do the right thing. Reach out unselfishly and with love.“
That prompted me to send John a text message. I asked if it was him jogging at 4 plus in the afternoon, with a smiley face. I said I was in the bus and waved, but he didn’t see me. I just wanted to say hi.
He replied 20 minutes later, with a short message saying yes it was him, and sorry he missed my wave.
I didn’t reply back and left it at there. There was no need for further communication, since he didn’t ask me any question. I understand what that means.
I’m thankful for that precious opportunity to practice care for a person from a distance. I was actually happy for that experience. Even if I see him somewhere on the streets in the future, I will continue to be happy and wave or smile whenever opportunity arises.
That evening, I went for the mini past life regression workshop. Truth is, I was internalizing a lot of learning after seeing John jogging on the streets, so you can imagine my mind is in a wild train of learning and thoughts. That probably isn’t the ideal situation to be in for a past life regression session.
When I reached the shop, I probably knew it was going to be a little hard for me to be regressed. There was loud music coming from the other pubs nearby. I am sensitive with hearing and am a light sleeper in nature. This means I would be easily distracted by noise. But I was still hopeful.
I tried, but my mind was not in focused, with the noise, and with the earlier event that took place. I felt my day was so clocked with experiences, I had a hard time dealing with it all.
I could visualize myself in certain images, whenever the person spoke. But I know that wasn’t really regression, I was just able to visualize those images. The 2 spiritual guides that I had in mind was the Goddess of Mercy and John. Of course I know John isn’t my spiritual guide. I was acutely aware that this person came into my mind only because I thought about him and the learning lessons a lot.
So, the past life regression didn’t work out for me sadly. But it was a good experience overall. Maybe the timing isn’t right for me. I’m looking at psychological therapy instead.
That night, I didn’t sleep very well (for the first time in days!). It was only natural, since there was so much going on during my day.
But I remembered waking up feeling much lighter in the morning despite some lack of sleep. I wonder why.